flashbacks.

Raya 2007

Helow.

i borrowed Finas' broadband and Putri's laptop. n im going to use this precious moments to jot down things in my blog.

well, having my laptop missing is hard for me. n im actually going over all the folders in my external hard disk. so many treasures. so many memories. the old memories will forever remain in my heart.

let me show u some pics of my old times. flashing back tyme!

Raya 2005

the last picture taken of daddy. holding Raudatul Alya Ramza bt Rudynata Ramza. this was taken 4 years back.

hahaha..banyak pic raye lah plak..hm..sedar tak sedar, makin lame, makin tuwe ni kan..raya dah tak seseronok dulu..sbb kite dah tuwe ke? well, transition to become an adult dah smakin trase. adoi..susah, emosi tak stabil langsung kot? hahahahaa...raya, raya...duit raya tahun ni memang mendukacitakan..hampeh tul, tapi ni smua dah dijangke..since awal2 lagi dah dngr ura2 saying that im not going to get any duit raya tahun ni bcoz of entering GM2..aiyookk! tak aci ok! huk!

i still cant sleep. dah nak masuk pkul 5 pagi ni..ade sebabnye..2,3 things bermain lam kpl ni..oklah let me share..

1. aku ni jenis tak menghargai org ke? how shud i show that i appreciate u so much? i cant show it thru actions kot? but truly, i love every single of u..i knew u out there have been supporting me n praying for me..i just dont know how to thank u..n i hope, by doing the very best i can actually pay back ur kindness...

2. congratulations to Amru and his fiancee kak Fatma. may u both have all the blessings in the whole world. n i will, forever always pray for both of u. im sorry for the harsh words Cuyu. its just i cudnt make myself stable when i didnt even know when u were getting engaged. oyat lah spatoh lenkali supaya saim2 tok kecik ati. bukey gapo, sapo lagi saim2 ado? mace tok perlu saim2 plot n seems like u didnt appreciates friendship bilo tkleh share berita gumbira ni. again, im sorry for all the harsh words. i was unstable. gilo tekejuk. but its okay, im happy for u n im sure everybody's happy for both of u. =) but well, this doesnt mean i took back wateva i said in the smses. ati tetap terkilan, tp nok oyat bui ambo doa sokmo ko saim2. so semoga berbahagia. ok?

3. im actually worried about whats going to happen this Thursday. waaaaahhh!!!! pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk minggu ke-9. fuuh! go go Bee! tak tau camne nak boost-up semangat sendiri kadang2...pray for me ok?

4. im wishing everybody Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. tahun depan nak wat plan beraye betui2. n i dont want to miss anybody's house dah! see u next year ok? insyaAllah kalo umo panjaaaaang......♥

disasterous raya?

let me tell u. simple.

someones broke into mommy's house. we lost so many things. INCLUDING my laptop. my laptop! ya Allah..its like losing half of my life. i nearly fainted. but the most important things were my daddy's belongings. how on earth are we going to collect it back? T_T

im now in Sri Pentas. pagi tadi sampai stesen Putra n awin picked me up at 6am. then i went out for branch wif Kerol (since awin was out working- on hari raya?pity u dear) and he sent me back to Peninsula. wahhh, kite mmg spesis y byk cakap kan? aiyokk! hahhaa...bising gile ok! so,everybody was back in town. =) but makin lame makin siket y tinggal. dah rase awkward plak. hmm..

ok, lets get back to bussiness! everyone pls take care ok!

p/s: selamat ari raye aidilfitri. n sorry for not replying raya wishes lagi..raya kan sebulan..ngeh3...

argh!

apekah ni??

adekah otak penat menyebabkan kite lebih negatif?

n y am i being sooooooo emotional today?

i've actually scolded a fren just now, but i didnt mean it.

no more flashing back the past ok?

i love my dear friends, i hope they love me too.

really dying to meet all of u, fellow zainabians. can i list down all the names? oh yes, i really mean it. i miss the GIRLS. =c

love.

p/s: congrats Cynthia n Kaiyi!!!

behind the wooden door.

tadi, mase duk cuci pinggan mangkuk..bnyak lak idea2 dtg mencurah..topics dtg menerjah n lalu-lalang mcm kete kat highway..whhahaha...so, mcm biase..meh kite type 1-1 dulu..kang nnt lupe..almaklumlah, musim raye ni..mkn ketupat byk sgt..=P

1. perceptions. boleh caye ke?

2. nape raye tahun ni tak best.

3. aku tak bangge pon.

4. mami masak best ok!

5. help, being jobless is killing me!

ehmm..n yes, my blog is about things that happened around me. i dont talk politics or facts or even about history. oh, scary. but i still respect bloggers who dare to speak up their mind on those. salute!

=)

come and go.

hai..

we r still here but leaving only with 8 girls. last night was really unpredictable. its hard to accept that Lyn and Izan were out oredi. Lyn was my roomates for the whole 6 weeks in this competition. She has been a very great sister, listener and teacher. I've learnt lot of meaningful things from her. and i actually still cudnt accept it that im going to walk this alone from now (without this talkative makcik with me lah). well, she has been motivating me since week 1 n now whats left are only her words. *aiyo, tlebih emo lah plak kan?* well Kak Lyn, i wish u all the best in ur futureundertaking. i know, u know, WE know that u have the talent and the world is not going to swallow u up. the industy needs ppl like u..yeah!

to Izan, u have the spirit! chaiyok2! and im proud of u. so as the team. go Puteh Production!!

~Puteh Production~

raya mode.

first and foremost, i wud say raya tahun ni wud be different. haih, dah la hampir sbulan puasa di tempat org..i really am craving for kueh-mueh y menjadi santapan wajib di bulan puasa..mami mesti tahu....my sis, my bro wud know wat i'll buy if we go to the Param together...ohh, kebab, bledo milo, murtabak...air nyo..woww!! *ssllurrrppp!!* enuf enuf...nnt sayu ati...sedih...

well, im writing this post while listening to Satu Hari Di Hari Raya by M Nasir..adduh duh duh...raya means a lot to me, i bet it means everything to some ppl..rite? but sadly, kadang2 i dun feel like celebrating raya since daddy's not with us anymore..the fun part of having him around suddenly being ripped off from our lives..daddy, we miss u..i really wanted to hear ur voice calling our names and screaming Raayaaaa in the morning..how u wud get prepared to go to the mosque and wait for us in the car...uhhmmm....

i'll stop here.

i love u daddy.

i love u mami.

i love u family.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. *its pre-wish* hehehe..
Maaf Zahir Batin.

after a long pause.

hai!!

adui, susah ok nk update blog..biasenye akan balik n trus tertido or keep on awake tp restless y amat...hmm..skang ni dah nak masuk episod ke 6 dah Gadis Melayu ni...and surprisingly, last week takde penyingkiran..hohoho...mmg lah kejutan..tp alhamdulillah, at least the 10 of us ade byk g mase to get to know each other...its fun and amazingly unique to actually mingle with these girls..mcm kerenah and sure is somthing new in our life..adoi..ayat cam best je kan? tp thats the truth..kalo tak duduk serumah cmni, mmg kite tak leh nmpk true colors sesame kite..

hhmm..this week punye task mmg mencabar...wwwooopppsiiie! cant tell u! hahaha..so, wateva it is, jgn lupa saksikan Gadis Melayu ari khamis ni..okeh!!

p/s: gladly want to thanks all the supporters. ya Allah, mencabar nye bile kne kutuk..tp u guys show up to help...terharu sgt...thanks thanks thanks...=)

p/s/s: im no perfect..sedih bile isu2 kecik diperbesarkan..but its normal, being outside and inside the tv really have thaught the lesson of life..insyaAllah, kita berdoa utk menjadi lebih baik dari smalam, dan semoga esok lebih baik dari hari ni...amin...