ape itu kamjad? oh, carilah di kamus2 bahse pasar ok.
hum.smalam first time aku tgk Gadis Melayu 2, sebagai penonton. aduih, betape awkward nye rase bile kak rock suh sume contestants ready on position dan aku y duduk d kerusi audience y hampir bangun. betapa awkward nye rase bile aku brade di studio tanpa rasa gemuruh y amat menanti elimination tyme. dan betapa burok nye aku nak compare dgn mereka2 di atas stage sane. oh yes, aku ajak kerol pg smalam. sbb die pon 1st time pg studio jadi fair n square lah kan? whahaa.
lyn is back in the game. congrats kak lyn. u deserve it. at least, takde peng-condemn-man terus mnerus on u in the website. yeap, aku sbenarnye dah lemah smangat ni. i dont know y, dari sehari ke sehari, the elimination seemed to take effect on me. huru-hara rasenye. nape? nape ek? aku tau sbbnye, sbb dlm diri kita smua ni tertanam satu sifat nak menang. walaupun slalu merendah diri dan rase tak layak, tp sape2 pon ade keinginan itu. aku pon termasuk skali. i wanna be there, on the stage, every week, to feel the adrenaline rush, to feel getting the imunity, to feel being criticized... adoi..apekaaahh???? dan aku juga dibunuh secara halus oleh komen2 di website. wat have i done wrong? adekah ppl have the rights to like or dislike ppl sesuka ati? hmm..tp ni lah reality nye kan? we have to accept all these things. aku menerima, cuma makin lama makin merudum keyakinan diri ni. dh rase serba tak kena n where the hell goes ME? me myself y telah membawa aku sjauh ini...where r u??? pls come back. m dying here.
tapi, m sure every single soul y masih berdiri di pentas sedang bersiap-sedia utk berperang. ini bukan mase utk main2 lagi ok? u have to show it, sape2 pon y menang, jgn lah smpi disangkal2 org..i know, each n every one of us have our own sparks. just take control and shine. =) chaiyok2!! jgn biar org pertikai kelemahan kite, tapi biar org canang kehebatan kita. nak pgg title Ikon Gadis Melayu bukan semudah yang disangka, tp bukanlah bebanan y perlu ditakuti..semangat tu penting..!
wats next?: status ku di fb. we'll see. =)
ape2 pon. i'll keep on voting for GM2. =) thats the spirit girl!
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I cant believe myself that i actually surfing in your blogg..really really not me..anyway u impress me a lot..my comment in Kamjad..well girl..u need to find yur inner self quickly before it went further down..Its good that u loose in this reality show whch is not that real to me..its just a cosmetic touch to dress pretty dolls in front of the camera and get as many sponsors as you can..hmm boring..but thats life..Yur life is not in this..thats Y God give u a bit of its taste (the glam world) ..well U got carried away..come on girl..get a grip..its not the end..its just a beginning...rediscover yurself and pray a lot...am saying this coz it give me senses and it does reflects me...am learning it too
thanks to NeNeKbAyAn, whoever u are..mungkn ini lah y dikatekan stiap y terjadi pasti ade hikmahNya...
=)
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