a special dedication!

Happy Birthday BebE!!!
Sweet 24!!

May all the LUCK in the world be with u..

p/s: Tahniah for 'that'..im not suppose to reveal it right? hehehe..tp im happy for u..akhirnya, cita2 tercapai..*so, doa be tetap termakbul rite?*

ado hikmah di sebalik kejadian. remember.

=)

husband

i want a husband
who can send me to work
and fetch me home
who will sleep beside me
n hug me close
who will help me with the laundry
cooking and cleaning the house

a husband
who can make me smile
n laugh after a tiring day
and even cuddle me no matter how smelly i got

who will help massage my back
when i have a bad backache
who i can say "dear, i really love that shirt, wud u buy one for me?"
and compliments me every morning and night
who'll kiss my forehead and say "I love u" with all his heart

a husband
who loves my mother, my sister and my brothers
who can accompany us to the shop
or even to the clinic
who can stay up if im working late
who will make coffea and buy goreng pisang for tea

who can share his work, his friends and his life with me
the same goes to me
who will never go crazy if i tell him i spend all my money
ha ha

and will forever be supportive as i will be
the most of all,
who will never leave me
and stay with me without doubt
i love u whoever u are
as long as u'll stay the same
a husband to me

*i figured out that man doesnt really understand that these small-tiny little things means the world for us..yeap, this maybe nonsense, but for me..all those watever i said are simple things to b highlighted..we can be easy, but its not a surprise if we r suddenly hard as rock. hahahha..

Pisces says:

Your vision for the future is a bit foggy right now, but you need clarity now more than ever. Therefore, in order to understand what you want for yourself, you need to take all the time you need to ponder where you want to take your life over the next five years. Do not apologize for being slow -- your future is too important! Luckily it won't take long for you to come up with a few ideas, especially since you see a great opportunity that could change everything.

oh yes, sure is foggy. bukan stakat foggy, dah macam black-out. n i really hope i have the solutions in short time. oh, i wish this can be solved in dreams. whahha..bangun2 ja im a somebody. not a nobody like this anymore. -_-

anyway, hero starts from zero.

peace.

bzzzzzz..~

finished.

but i dun have a title for my blog.

sape2 leh tlg suggest?

hee~

layout.

waah. aku tak suke layout aku. nak balik y lame! tp aku lupe save code! urgghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! benci benci benci.. camne nak buat ni..uwaaaa...!!!

stupid network+facebook

Happy birthday to Faridah Jiadiyyah!!
sweet 23...!

i wanted to wish thru facebook but after about 2 hours waiting..my wish cudnt be posted! urgghh!!!

love u, may God bless u.

n may u read this blog. (if u know this blog exist lah) hahhaa..

aku rindu kamu

here are the list of ppl i REALLY missed! sesungguhnya makhluk2 Allah yang dah lame sangat tak jumpe..*note: ini adalah snarai orang y sangat2 dirindui..n im listing mengikut y mane terlintas di dalam kpl dan kalo kire dah lebih 2 years tak jumpe, OK?*

yana wan mat
yunni + her family
koma
oli
mia
joyah
mc ong
besoh,oh i miss u
mc moh
tiok
ilah
fatin laily
sarah nabila
-stopped, kpl crammed, the list putus-
cuyu
zana
illy
cikas
awom
atiq
aimi liyana (both anak en Fauzi n Othman)
mimi,u yes u aniqah
ibrati
oja+faten
din (where did he go? aku tok tahu mano nok cari budok ni)
kak faa (she's my God sister when i was in Form 1; very cute handwrtting)
awin!!
oh..tolong beratur wahai nama2...
fiki (ehem, this is bcoz lamo sangat tok jupo jah OK..)
yeng, jimi
ishk..now its like im listing all my childhood friends' name jaa??

ok, stop there. i missed my frens from my primary school, secondary school, my tuitions (mukherjee, mrs chin, mega, smart reader, canggung), all my chit-chatting frens (abe mi, akim n bla bla bla), my briged bakti's friends (ustak yus, adib), kawan2 tadika (i cant list their names bcoz i only remember cute faces!), hockey teams! uhhhh....and the list goes on (mcm neverending story).. hahahaha...

eh, tibe2 tringat zaman lepak2 kat umah Yunni, we used to stayback before school (skolah sesi petang)..mase tu form 2,3..kat umah Yunni, blakang skolah je..so i came early to school, then p lepak umah Yunni, or Yana *oh sangat best mkn lunch di rumah org* whahahhaa...n knew bunch of boys y cute2..hahha..*oooppsss* wat happened to them now nobody knows..muke camne pon maybe dah tak ingat..but that was so sweet...kenangan ngan kawan2..me, mia, koma, yana, yunni + sometimes ade joyah, oli, aimi, bismi, fatin, ema, syamim, tina, aina..ehhh...makin ramai? hhahaha..

continue lenkali..nnt nk flashback all the notty things we've done when we were young *skang pon young lagi daaaa*

love.

moody.

i m up early today.
masuk lab pon pukul 8 pg lagi. but i think im going home just around 9.
i was so confused when i woke up this morning.
serabut kpl+ i dun no wats wrong.
moody? ataupon takde perasaan langsung?
ok now, part of me says maybe it was bcoz im too tired.
another part says, no, its bcoz u hv nothing to do.
well, both r correct.
hahaha.

oh, help. bagaimanakah? utk menceriakam hari niss...*the weather is not helping at all*

oh no.

during my free time, i do this..

pics taken from LUKA launching in Belum Rainforest Resort. *sorry i cropped ol pics* -trying to b creative doh~ hehehhee..

hahahhaa...sorry, amatur..jadi mengeksperimentasikan pics diri sendiri dulu..haahhaa

action speaks louder than words.

this is how i reacted when i got my new shoes.



or something like this.



ape-ape pon, wats done is done. this is my new shoes. mOahahahha..




and sungguh cantek di kaki ku~



mmg niat post ini adalah utk menunjuk2.

*-*

oh yes.

1. i've watched HeJustNotThatIntoYou - its not a Must Watch movie thou. tp sangat berkesan di hati. i love Drew Barrymore being a nerd and i hate Scarlett Jo for being such a seducer. i wonder if im an exclusion or a common. or something like that. love's not that easy to catch. well, if sape2 nak tgk u can go n watch. tak menarik sangat tp will make u wonder. a lot. a lot until u feel dizzy n ur head spins. not spinning gasing. whahhaa..k Yan n K Zairin gave 4 stars. OK lah tu...

2. i have a flickr account. do visit me at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/beeramza

3. i bought a new Converse. yes, n no i have to stop buying shoes! but i really LOVE it. sangat mengidam udah lama since 3 years back. yuuuhhhuuuuuu!!

thats all. news updated.

haha.

mommy + orchids.

i wonder y Moms love orchids? kne tunggu jadi mother dulu lah kot, n plg penting a housewife..hehehe..well, here is a special post for my mom. A very warm, beautiful, stylo i wud say *hahak* and so many more to describe her. she do best at house cleaning n washing. well, i said she do best at those, but she did very well being a very lovely mother. she's now almost 60 yet too young to be old. i like her taste in choosing colours n patterns. she's magnificient in her own way. humm.. dah benti keje and since my dad passed away, she concentrates more on flowers and flowers and flowers.. her fav are orchids!!! sgt lah banyak n makin bertambah everytime i got back. last week i manage to capture some of the orchids, they're blooming. sangat chaaaaaaaaaanntekk!! hehehe..mommy said, nak jage orkid is simple; talk to them everyday *whoooaaa, talk to flower? OKAY* n neva forgets to water them*but i think orchids ni tak pyh siram slalu*. here are some pics i captured including the owner skali. *wink, my momi sgt cantek ok?*

momi is showing me the flower she love the most.

uhh..sejuk ati tgk these orchids.

ok, thank momiii!! n have a very nice trip to Ho Chi Minh..!! enjoy urself, n u know i love u the most. mmuah!

love.

audition.

i just threw myself off a stupid audition *me=stupid, not the audition* i saw some famous faces but i cant recall the names. but the whole things was so fast. i can only remember im holding a board (like the cut cut scenes they used in the movie) written there Empayar Tamingsari, below was my name Robaeha. I was asked to turn every 90degrees (felt like a killer being caught there). They asked for my name, what im doing now and restlessly i answered everything with shaking legs n voices. omg, malu teramat. wat have i done? stupid. stupid.stupid. ok, there was a lady *i think she's an artist-nnt i figure out the name* asked me to do some impromptu action. hoiii~ i didnt take any acting class, but i just put all words in one sentences and waaalllaaaaaahhh!! it was totally a big mistakes. 5 minutes and im out. shame on me. urgh. i didnt got the part, of wateva they are casting. siot. naah, i didnt want any of it either. no, me? an actress? no n forever im not going into a walk-in audition.

ps: gudluck to kwn2 yang lepas. hahaha..u rawk!

kpd sesiapa y cuba mencari saya. lihat dalam laci or bawah meja or dalam bakul sampah sb saya malu teramat smpi rase mcm nak pkai topeng otromen for the whole week. -_-

Perkara 21

i got this from a very lovely friend. Smoga dapat kita berkongsi bersama-sama. =)

PERTAMA.
Bersedekahlah kepada orang lain lebih daripada yang mereka perlukan dan lakukanlah dengan penuh kerelaan.

KEDUA.
Kahwinilah lelaki / wanita yang gemar anda berbicara dengannya, kerana kemahiran berbicara antara satu dengan lain akan menjadi lebih penting pabila usia semakin tua.

KETIGA.
Usahlah mempercayai segala perkara yang anda dengari. Berbelanjalah sekadar apa yang ada atau tidurlah seberapa lama yang anda perlu

KEEMPAT ..
Apabila kamu berkata, " Aku Cinta Padamu", maka tunaikanlah.

KELIMA.
Pabila mengatakan, "Maaf", tenunglah matanya.

KEENAM.
Bertunanglah sekurang-kurangnya enam bulan sebelum kamu diijabkabulkan.

KETUJUH..
Percayailah cinta pandang pertama.

KELAPAN..
Usah tertawakan impian orang lain. Manusia tanpa impian tidak memiliki apa-apa.

KESEMBILAN.
Cintailah seseorang dengan sepenuh hati dan penuh kasih sayang. Sungguhpun anda akan berasa seolah-olah diri anda tersiksa, tapi percayalah itulah satu-satunya untuk melengkapkan kehidupan ini.

KESEPULUH.
Jika berlaku perselisihan pendapat, bertengkarlah secara aman. Usahlah menyebut nama sesiapa ketika bertengkar.

KESEBELAS.
Usahlah menilai seseorang berdasarkan peribadi keluarga mereka.

KEDUABELAS.
Berbicaralah dengan tenang dan berfikirlah dengan pantas.

KETIGABELAS.
Apabila seseorang bertanyakan satu soalan yang tidak anda gemari, lontarkanlah senyuman dan bertanyalah padanya,"Kenapa anda ingin tahu?"

KEEMPATBELAS.
Ingatlah bahawa setiap cinta dan pencapaian yang besar akan melibatkan pengorbanan dan risiko yang besar.

KELIMABELAS.
Ucaplah "Semoga anda diberkati" apabila mendengar seseorang bersin.

KEENAMBELAS.
Apabila anda kerugian, janganlah jadi kurang ajar.

KETUJUHBELAS.
Berpeganglah kepada tiga R:
1. Rasa hormat pada diri sendiri;
2. Rasa hormat kepada orang lain;
3. Rasa tanggungjawab terhadap semua tindakan anda

KELAPANBELAS.
Usahlah benarkan pertikaian yang sebesar hama merosakkan sebuah persahabatan yang besar.

KESEMBILANBELAS.
Apabila menyedari bahawa anda telah melakukan kesalahan, usahlah berlengah untuk perbetulkan kesalahan itu.

KEDUAPULUH.
Tersenyumlah ketika menjawab telefon. Pemanggil akan melihatnya daripada suara yang mereka dengar.

KEDUAPULUH SATU
Ada ketikanya anda perlu bersendirian.

actually aku tak stuju ngan no 21. i may have my own reasons for that. no, u cant be alone. in any condition.

i shud add on 1 more thing wat i like the most about my house..

7. daddy's here. i can feel him everywhere. -_-

love.

Liverpool da kalahkan Blackburn 4-0

eh. tak best nye type gune kibod kat umah ni...eh?? did i just say UMAH?? yesss!! m at home at last...duuuh, home sweet home...sangat2 homesick..n i finally got the guts to drove all the way from Penang back to KB...uyeahh!! well, i did stop at Banding (of course)..sent the posters, picked up samples n still need to be back there on Monday..BUUUUUTTTTT, i am HOME now!! uhhh...tanak pk ape2 dahhh...best best best.

ape y best kat umah??
1. u can actually sleep-watching tv.
2. i really love the smell of mommy's sofa.
3. new bed! momi bought a really huge new bed for us *us = me, momi n my sis laa*
4. my room. errr, dah jadi mcm store dah
5. all the foooddddd...yummmy....~
6. honestly. i just really adore my house. uumaaaaahhhhhh!!!its good to be back..

ish, agak2 da brape lame tak balik umah ni..n jadi excited sgt bcoz i didnt plan this at all. suddenly bubbles popped-up in my head. ape kate balik aje lah umah, da alang2 nak p Banding~ uyeaahhh!! n i did it!!

uuhh..bye.nap p tidoq kat katil baru!!yeahh!

*sronotnyaa* =)

i need to gain weight. uh, 39.5 kg? helo, i am 22 years old oredi. come on. nok wak gano ni? hellpppp!!!!

new look.

lagi updates on USM's new look. this is School of Biological Sciences *this is where i work!* tadaaaaa~ nmpk NEW tak? hahahaha...

Foyer main building G08

ujung tu skul kimia.

pusat Vektor tak siap cat lagi. tgk tu atas bangunan ade tukang cat. uuihh, tak gayat ke?

saye seorang WITCH

halo,

just to share with everybody one of the best Nasi Lemak in Penang. hehe, jgn tkejut. but its called Nasik Lemak Liverpool. i knew bout this wonderfull stall *not exactly a stall la. bwh flat punye kedai* 2 or 3 years ago. flashback sat:credit to Kerol sbb dielah bertanggungjwb kenalkan kedai ni kat aku.hahaha..mase 1st time p sini kitorg ngah plan nk wat surprise birthday illy n lee..uh,miss those times!!!..lame giler tak jmpe illy n zana daaa... ish, dah lame tak p ni. tapi smlm ajak K Zairin p. jalan hentam aje lah since i nearly forgot where's the place. zooooomm~

Liverpool Forever tu~


ayam panas~ best!


heheheh~

macik ni ckp : nnt datang lagi half price! hahaha..*sbb i told her im going to promote the kedai*

nmpak pinggan kami? malu nak amek full pics sbb licin habiss!! hahaha...itu, tv besaw! sempat tgk gol Torres y hebat smlm! uyeah!

so, this sangat-sedap-nasi-lemak-stall is situated in Batu Lanchang. dekat ngan Lam Wah Ee tu. selain nasi lemak, ade lah jugak goreng2 n macam2 lagi lah. but go there n try the nasik lemak OK? nyum2..

p/s: balik terus tido..zZZZzzzz....

renovation?

em, mungkin sbb dorang ni dpt byk duit sangat kot? n have been renovating all the buildings. eh, kalo baiki takpe. ini cat aje. yeap, thats the phenomenon here. sume bangunan dah cat baru ni. we have green, brown, dark brown, yellow n bla bla bla.one of it is the mosque. aku suke. tp perlu kah cat-cat baru ini menjadi titik permulaan APEX university ini? i dun think so. ape ingat kalo cat baru student jadi smangat nak blaja ke? naek pening kpl dok bau cat since 2 weeks ago. tapi, tak baiki ape2. my lab is still lack of everything. kebuk wasap tak jalan. then nak salahkan sape kalo kitorang exposed to so-called carcinogens that wud cause cancer? dan macam2 lagi y boleh dibaiki or replace instead of habiskan duit cat bangunan.. hmm..

rain rain go away.

its been raining since last nite. i remembered that i woke up at 5 am n my face was all wet due to the rain. note: tingkap di atas kepala aje. n tak pnah tutup. so, pandai2 la bile hujan. uhh, terpakse la tutup tingkap n continue tido walaupun my pillows n teddies basah! shhett~ n ironically, nape Liv kalah ni? uhh, rase cam tanak bangun tido. hmmhh! maybe thats y i dun feel like betting last nite. haha. takpelah, its just cup cakes. ha ha ha.

n now, its STILL raining. n everyone is so moody today. sleepy. wet. oh, where's my sunshine? tp, kalo panas bising jugak. too hot lah, sweating lah. well, lumrah manusia lah tu. *wink*

ok bye. work. u've got about 30+ samples to analise dear.

uhh. rain rain pls go away.

oh no.

susohnyo nok buat decision. especially bila berada di persimpangan. or so-called "persimpangan dilema". haha. well, i've made my choice. that is: stick to wat im doing now. pursue my dream. master n up to go *uh, phd is a long way to go lah!*. thanks to my bro, Awom n ol the ppl dat hv been motivating me. blaja, blaja, blaja. he he he.

quoted from Awom : kena ada sacrifice la kalu nk move forward..sacrifice... utk dapat yg terbaik nanti

well, it was nice to have those wonderful experiences going to the interview. but, history it will be. go beha go!!

fuhh~

p/s: "You'll Never Walk Alone".... < Liverpool vs Chelsea tunite 2 am. Go Torres!!

chumel~

dear blog,

i really dun have the energy to write now, but im posting some of the pics i snapped during my weekends at my bro's crib..aduuui, comel sgt da budak2 ni..yeayy!!cik a sayam kamu~

bye kids, see u soon!

*i tried to upload vid of aimi..tot u'll enjoi the cuteness..tp too slow maaa~ next time lah!* =(

review.

kadang2 kena review posts.

pilihan post : The Friend posted on December 9, 2008.

actually, nawaitu post itu adalah untuk memujuk kwn baek y merajuk. well, its weird that i hv to explain this. tp takpolah, seems like ade beberape orang yang TERsalah anggap dengan post itu. i wrote, 'for u, i will wait' what i meant was waiting for apology. herm, i stated the word FREN so many times that i think my cats can understand that poem was meant for a fren. no 'invinsible' perception pls. well, sumthing must have mixed up there. but i know, u know a fren is a fren till the end. m being sangat menghargai kawan2. adakah salah? its for a fren, n forever a fren the person will be. love is so subjective. n in this case, i was referring to a love that is for fren. thats all. nape complicated kan menda sesenang abc. i said, 'move on' bcos this-very-gud-fren of mine sangat merajuk dan halus hatinya smpi berkate-kate that im not a fren anymore n actually moving on wif a new job that time. very pissed off eh that time?

i hope no more confusing statements. i love smua kawan2 ku.

uh.

aku jahat.

What's Ur Flavour?

dis is wat i did yesterday. *wink* nyum2.

urgh. sgt sedap. mint choc+caramel praline cheesecake. 1 pint tuuu...

left: Kak Zairin, tpakse beli kat Haagen Dazs dek kehabisan stok seteroberi-cheesecake and Kak Yan wif her nescafe-sangat-eskremnye *cudnt recall the flava*

well, siap lepak tepi Queensbay lagi. angin sepoi2 bahse. sambil tgk budak2 maen layang y sangat colourful. worth it la. queue panjang gile tuuu~ then we had kropok lekor yang amatlah keras-mcm-batu-baek-geget-batu-aje. hahah~

Thanks K Yan n K Zairin. walaupon aku jugak lah drivernye.

love